Lila says ....

I took the phone, "hello"
"yes"
I confessed with my highest confidence,"I love you"

I could feel her breath, but empty.After a few moments of sweet and sorrow,
Lila says,
"I know !"

Finland in Florida

Last weekend i went for a movie with my Finnish friend, Tanja Kärkkäinen. We were talking about finland. She is very upset about not finding any Finnish here. Once, while she was raoming on the roads of Washinton DC, few finnish words caught her attention. She jumped with excitement and directly attacked the couple who was talking in finnish. Thus including herself total three finish people she knows in this country.

"Helsinki is Finland's capital, right"

"Wow, you know that.. great !!! "

"Whats so great in that ? I also know nokia is a finnish company" i gave a witty smile as i was trying to make fool of myself.

"Thats wow, indeed, you know what , Once i met an american lady in Texus, She asked me from where i am?"

"finland"

"Auh !!! Thats in Florida, right? Pretty close, Huh !"

"Yeah , Pretty close, but not that close though"

"I could not controll my lough. What the fuck was that"

She could not controll her lough in theatre also until a irritated voice came "Excuse me !"

New comment on Usual nonsensical ranting that doesnt make sense. ....

Crush, Infatuation and Love. Attraction can be categorized in these three. These cant be mixed up.

Nobody is perfect. Neither i , nor you or anybody. So looking for Mr/Miss Perfect is an absolute foolishness. Love is not about finding similarities, its all about respecting differences. Love is not about being perfect or seeking perfectness. Its all about
understanding imperfectness ,perfectly. You are wise enough to understand, only thing i would request you to spare a second on it.

Everything is relative in this universe. Nobody, i would rather say, nothing is absolute good or absolute bad. Today whome you thing is best , tomorrow he can become the worse as you have already found somebody better than the previous one.

Its a neverending chain/process. More you run behind this , more you get lost. Its a mirage. If we try to find goodness or badness in somebody, we do use our brain. Which is totally irrelavent to Love.
In love we don't use brain in conscious level, it does all tricks in sub-conscious level, which we say kinda "My Heart says". We would feel , if we are really in love. May be we will be in confused, "Is this really Love" Then we just need to give time to it. Time will tell what was or is it. Let it go the way its going, one fine day our mind would be clear.Don't squiz it, don't neglect it. But if we dont want it, just forget about it. Dnt think /talk about it for some time , it will get flushed away.
Even though its there , dude some thing is cooking ... ;)


A crush can not be love or vise versa. Those carries completely different attributes.A relationship can start with a simple crush then love. But both can not coexist.
Crush is liking somobody, which is normally the mere beginning of Love. But its not obvious a crush will end up with Love.
Crush is a quick event, Love takes time. If we are ok with going further , we should give some time to it ...

If you are only in 'Crush' mode and don't wanna go further, its pretty easy to get out of it.Normal ways are
"Out of sight , Out of mind"
"Some thing else"
"Some body else, not in same shoes"

Some times we see somebody and feel that he or she is the one, or he/she has everything whih i am looking for.
But many cases, if start finding the imperfectness in him/her. Wiredly , things, which we dont want in her/him becomes visible ... Because thats the truth.

According to me, in these cases, rather than letting thoughts haunting you, we should be concentrating in something which we really wanna do in life. Something creative. Some thing we think and dream of doing in life.

If still we are confused,just need to ask ourselves,

"Do i like him?"
"Do i wanna get along with him"
"Do i feel like taking it a bit futher"
"Do i feel like staying with him in future/ spending my future with him" (Its all about feelings)
- If any of these , answers NO. Then go watch a cartoon movie. Else you can give a try. With time you will come to know what you should do.We just need to be a bit intelligent to sense something quickly. which i think you are more than required.

I alaways say a big NO NO to
"Is she/he PERFECT for me?" - Crap it is.

All the very best my friend. i wish you get what you want ... mental peace, freedom ... I wish you feel free. Free Free Free.

"Why does 24 hours a day is not enough ?"

Sitting at my cubicle, was trying to fix an error in the program.My supervisor came asked "Tell me one thing, why twenty four hours a day is not enough".

I know he told for pure fun but i noticed a funny but frustrated smile on his face.

"If i give you 48 hours a day, that also would not enough"

"Why?"

Well, here is some facts about my supervisor. He is freaking workaholic. Since morning ten to night one or two, everyday he will be sitting at his desk

, looking at the computer screen as if he will dive inside it to get a pearl out of deep,unknown sea. He is married for seven years. What i heard or guessed

his wife initially tried to get him back from this deadly addiction. I think she has given up now. He get rare chance to spend time with his wife on weekdays.

He will hit the road after late night after getting non stop calls from his wife who's waiting for him, after preparing dinner, to have dinner together.

"Why do you join this company or this job? For money so that you can live a better life?"

"Yeah money factor is there but i also do this for satisfaction"

"Well, regarding money, whats the use of earning such money when you don't have to time to feel the difference which your money has caused ?

I , personally, believe in living and enjoying a peace full, happy life. I don't want to waste my life running behind money without getting the taste of life. Again for some,only money,career can define life. But don't get me wrong. I would prefer my professional career ahead of many things but not sacrificing my happiness.

Well when it comes to your satisfaction, that's your very own personal matter. It symbolises you vision and idea about likeness. You should not force your subordinates to adopt the same sense of satisfaction. Working sixteen hours a day, without proper food, sleep, leaving everything i like to do or have daily, does not satisfy me at all.Then why do u or our managers make us to do this against our conscious will. Why our managers try to push their individual idealism towards a organizational idealism"

"You need some brain wash", my supervisor said, making a witty face.

And i realized all my colleagues have surrounded me and listening such as they are totally into it and i am saying their words, I am expressing their emotions. I felt happy to see a broken smile on their face.

One of them told me with a obliged smile "It was nice !!" I felt a sense of satisfaction on her face.

Long time ...

Almost forgot about you ... Forgive me ... hope you will make me your own ... hope you will kiss my chick and take me onto your chest ...